I watch you as you walk away, with unfocussing eyes. I had never aniticipated it would end this way, that one day your back would be turned against me. The only Heaven I knew was in your embrace.I found Peace in those warm hugs. I seeked Solace in those deep black eyes, Courage from that blinding smile, Hope from those beautifully brave words. Words which strengthened me, made me believe that YES, we would win some day.
That day never came. And Im standing here today, awestruck at the power of words, infact, just one- BYE.
You walked away with your arms digging deep into your pockets, a tune playing on your i-pod. Not even once did you look back at the girl whose world you had shattered. That very world, that you had helped her construct. The Utopia that existed in her dreams, her mind, her heart. In one stroke, you had ripped my life off me. Watching you walk away with that stone cold heart, I found no voice, no soul within me.
You never looked back as I stretched my hand out and begged for you to come back. Was it so easy for you? For your heart to just let go? Was it so easy to say Goodbye as you made it sound?
Frankly, I do not care.
The voice in my head screams at me, commands me to move on. This time, Im taking heed. I've had enough of those fantasies you spun for me. At the cost of dead soul and a broken heart, I've realised that you were a nightmare. A terrible and morbid nightmare. I've woken up to face the reality...a world which has no respect for the rubbish that you had grilled into me, the stories of love that I had readily believed. None of that now.
All things happen for the best, they say. Never believed a word of that. NOW, I do. I never felt more rejuvenated than this before. I now understand how challenging it is to walk with your eyes shut, hypnotised, through a world that is so complex, so welcoming, so REAL. With you now gone for good, I've shaken off my demons. You are nothing but a worthless figment of my memory, that rests in the dustiest corner of my brain.
If one day you wake up to realise my worth in your life, just remeber one thing- it's too late.
Goodbye, loser.
